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Why I Need New Songs To Listen To
16 November 2008, 21:32
I'm an extremely nostalgic person. I guess some people might find that hard to believe, but well, I guess I do have a hard time admitting it at times. I'm guilty of having shoeboxes filled with letter from recollections that date back to the 5th grade. I have balloons that my friends gave me for my birthday. The ice cream spoon from the first time I was ever allowed to go to the mall with my friends. These are just some of the things I amassed over the years.
But as time went on, I stopped collecting things..(okay junk). It was just getting a bit too much, and frankly, I didn't buy shoes all that often anyways. But just cause I had no more physical evidence of the memories of certain events in the movie that is my life, I do have the songs that are part of the soundtrack.
Music will always be a big part of my life. My mood sometimes depends on the type of songs I hear on the radio at the start of the day. I used to have "good luck" songs before an exam. (If a certain song would play before an exam, I'd get a high grade. Nerdy i know. :) ) But yeah, listening to songs really does send me right back through memory lane. Like how when I hear the Backstreet Boy's Quit Playing Games With My Heart, I remember how everyone thought Nick Carter was woman turned man. And how Panic! At The Disco's It's Time to Dance reminds me of second year college, where 801 was still "party central" for everyone and anyone who wanted to just hang out (and study...?). Or how the Goo Goo Doll's Iris was my favorite song back in grade 7 and how that was the last song I danced to in my senior prom (and how I still can't stand listening to it until now because it makes my heart ache a bit..not cause of the prom thing, but just out of nostalgia for time that has gone by). There's also Maroon 5, with She Will Be Loved and how I always always always wanted someone to sing that for me (harana style. Hahaha). And TBS's Make Damn Sure and how that song was my favorite song to sing at the top of my lungs back in college when I would drive home alone for the weekend (and how I was listening to that song when I got into my first minor car accident).
I could go on and on about the songs that makes me all teary on the inside (like the EHeads' Huwag Mo Nang Itanong Sa Akin, or Jason Mraz' Sleeping to Dream or Josh Kelley's Love Is Breaking My Heart), but that's gonna take forever. I guess I'm writing this because there are times (recently anyways) that I've been getting more and more nostalgic. Maybe it's because I feel like my life basically revolves around work and I've failed to come up with new memories in recent weeks. Maybe because things have changed so rapidly in the past couple of months that I haven't had time to sit down and just be able to think. Now it's funny, how sad I'm getting because I haven't had time to be sad.
The good thing about my life right now is that it's controllable. And for a control freak like me, that's a VERY good thing. But I guess I can't help wish for something more. I don't wish for anything life changing, but I do wish that for something new. Maybe there is something better than living a routine.
Lloyd Cole - Impossible Girl
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