We all live with things we regret.
I guess sometimes it can be as simple as eating that last bag of chips when you know you'll have a tougher time fitting in your pants the next day. Or buying that pair of shoes that are now in sitting in your shoe closet, untouched. Or that last shouting match you just had with your mom/dad/sister/brother/friend that left your relationship temporarily strained. I'm sure everyone's had their fair share of the "what was I thinking?" moment. And even though we know that we can never, ever take back what we said or did, we continue to torture ourselves by replaying the incident over and over in our heads.
Or at least that's what I do.
Everyone that knows me knows I think too much. I think that's been pretty much the focus of ALL the "blog entries" that I've ever posted. But going back to the topic, regret is something I get plagued by quite often. So maybe buyer's remorse takes centerstage in my regret list (impulse buying will be my downfall someday. but really, tell me who can resist buying Korean erasers for only P100? I mean, dude. They were cute.) I have my fair share of wtf moments, of instances that I really really wish I never had. I guess this isn't a very Christmas-y thought, but the cold weather always gets me all sentimental and wanting to listen to the slow songs buried in my iPod. I guess what got me thinking about regret is that there have been a lot of things that happened in 2008 that involved making tough decisions, and I've been wondering if along the way, I've made some bad ones.
And while not all decisions I made would be considered smart or good or the best, I can safely say that I do not regret the decisions I've made. Because I feel that I've become a stronger person, a tougher person. A better person. There are some things that I wish turned out differently though. I have to admit, 2008 was a tough year, and everyone says 2009 will be even tougher. But I guess in life, nothing really is just smooth sailing. But we make the best out of what we have and who we are. So while I still torture myself over how much better I could have said something or maybe have done something differently, I think what makes me calmer now is that I know that no matter how differently I did things, I would still have ended up with the same decision in the end. And ultimately, I'm happy about how things turned out.
I'm still hoping though that 2009 will have less life-altering decision making and just be a good year for everyone.
I will try my best to put up more holiday-related thoughts next time.
Merry Christmas all!
Song: The Smiths - Please, Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want
Of Regrets and Other Christmas Thoughts
